Anonymous familiarity

After lurking in so many places, big and small, I still could not escape the feeling of emptiness. 
I knew that these places were good and beautiful, places were worth being.
Then I started believing that my greatest fear is about to come true. That my amalgamation with human bond was inevitable and absence of company was the reason for this mouldering feeling. 
Someone homogeneous mind to discuss thoughts with.
To my satisfaction this confusion was cleared when day before yesterday evening
 the clouds from my mind had covered up the sky.
 In the month of February it started to rain.
it didn't rain heavily, but rained enough 
to fill the emptiness of my mind.
now I know what was missing.
It was this familiarity that i cannot name.